I watched, as her breathing became more and more shallow, the pauses between breaths grew longer and longer. And then they stopped…. forever.
My mother was gone.
As my tears flowed, they weren’t so much for Mum’s passing; she had a long life (1920 – 2004), but for her lost potential.
You see, life had beaten her down. Oh, she was a fighter and a survivor, no doubt of that, but she had settled for less than her desires. Her fears of loss and lack won out and this made her bitter.
Yes, her time was a different time in history for women and it was not easy to rise above the status quo, but she had the chops to do it and in some ways she did, but not for herself. It was always for others. This manifested in a ‘silent victim’ persona she carried in her energy and the word ‘martyr’ was a common noun us kids kept unspoken but nonetheless acknowledged.
With her as my example, I almost walked the same path. It took me many decades to unravel this subconscious thread of knots, learn who I truly am and live my soul purpose, especially in my second half of life.
This is the time in a woman’s life when she comes into her own, can truly shine her brilliance and make a difference in this world.
If you are in this time of your life, I’m wondering, if you are longing to embrace something inside of you. Maybe you don’t know what it is, or you’re fearful, or you feel stuck in mud up to your waist. You’re tired of fulfilling someone else’s dreams, but never your own. You know there is more for you and you’re hearing the clock tick.
It’s taken me a lifetime, but I have learned what it takes to not die with your soul purpose unsung, and it’s my passion in my role as Intuitive Life Coach/Mentor to teach you and women like you how to shine your brilliance.